I’m so over everything right now.
It’s pretty awesome to know how concerned you are about me…
I just want to curl up and cry about everything.
I’m beginning to hate myself more than anyone else. Didn’t ever think I’d be in this dark place again, or at least so soon.
Sometimes I feel like I’m not good enough for you and that you deserve so much better than me. I’m too selfish sometimes and it hurts me. Blegh
Ugh you’re fantastically annoying! My boyfriend is just that! MY FUCKING BOYFRIEND! He does not exist to get you and your sad friends alcohol whenever you so desire. It’s one thing to ask once in awhile but it’s getting old. Also, if you need his fucking number you can ask ME not my roommate. kthanks you can leave now.
No no it’s cool. Please go spend time with other people so you can eat while I am obviously a bit upset.
You’re both being dicks and I don’t fucking appreciate it. Also it’s not funny anymore.
wow so you’re engaged again? Maybe you actually love this one and wont cheat and leave him broken in the dirt. Fuck you
preheatedmemory: Read More Oh goodness I love you too :3
Sometimes out really do annoy me and possibly even piss me off but hey, what else are best friends for? Luv yew most of the time
esexist: there is a thin line between being sassy and being an asshole and i cross it everyday
I really need someone to talk to right now fuck me and my life. I’m a giant piece of shit and you should have told me years ago.
I haven't been this mad in a long time.
Just because I can.
Sometimes, more often than not these days, I pretty much hate everyone around me and I’m not even sorry about it.
You know it’s officially a Monday night when you’re crying alone in your bedroom.
Disappointing everyone in my life is what I do best these days.
The amount of hate in my heart that I hold towards my father is astounding.
I basically hate everything about you. You’re a waste of space and breathable air.
Please don’t get a fucking attitude with me when you’re the one that asked the dumb ass question…
It’s astounding how much you fucking annoy me! Things change so much in just a few months and I’m not even upset about it at this point. I’m just ready to be out of this fucking place. It’s bad enough I see you where I live but where I work too… that’s just too much for me and I will be so grateful when I can move. But for now I will just try to make your life...
Please dear god, don’t let anybody say something stupid. I don’t feel like yelling tonight. Also, please find me a new job. Thank
I’m working dinner for the first time by myself tonight and I feel like I am going to throw up all over myself.
Upon being proposed to I will most likely throw up.
I figured that I would make an update about Kami… she’s great! We all have a lot in common and she’s gotten comfortable with us quite quickly which is great because we can all be slightly (read: very!) awkward. Her parents are taking us all to see the new Bond movie (daniel craig is delicious) and to dinner tonight at Ted’s. Oh did I mention that they’re filthy...
The idea of dog stairs is visually revolting to me but I know that Jordan and I will have to get a set for my baby Yoda when we move. Oh the sacrifices I make for that stupid asshole of a dog.
My new roommate is moving in on Wednesday and I don’t know how to feel about this. On one hand I am quite excited just to meet her and perhaps make a new friend but on the other hand I don’t really like change or new people. Weh we’ll see how this all pans out and I’ll update next week.
So stressed… which is causing me to get emotional and I eat when I am emotional. I am gaining weight because I am eating so much, therefore, causing more stress. Fuck
Struggling with that inner battle between wanting to stay true to myself and be who I want to be and trying to be who the world thinks I should be.
I have an interview a week from today… cross your fingers that I don’t fail miserably.
bleh I feel so stupid sometimes :(
It’s so awesome to feel left out in the middle of your friends…
Thank the sweet lord that my man is going to be here next semester. It’s only been a month of school and already it’s been the hardest thing I’ve ever done. I can’t stand being away from him. It cuts me right down to the core and sometimes a girl just needs a hug.
Bleh this week has been kind of shitty but I guess I’m slowly turning it around.
Anonymous asked: why you fallin apart hun? and why wouldnt anybody notice
What’s the point of you people following me if you aren’t ever going to speak to me? This stuff isn’t even interesting.
I’m fucking falling apart and nobody around me even notices.
Fucking fuck! There are so many emotions going through my tiny little body and I have no idea how to handle it all. I am absolutely IN LOVE with my boyfriend but I’ve recently found myself attracted to this guy I just met and I don’t know how to deal. These feeling seem so foreign, because I haven’t felt this for over a year and a half. FUCK! :( I just wanted to be his friend but...
My theme song should be The Perfect Space by the Avett Brothers.
I’m watching these shows on TLC where these ladies pick out wedding dresses and I’m getting depressed because I feel like Jordan will never ask me to marry him.
Bugh! I am beginning to get extremely stressed out. I think that I have become slightly depressed and I am not okay with that. I can’t make friends. The few I do have seem to be vanishing in large quantities and I don’t know how to cope with that. My two close friends here both have diagnoses problems with depression so I feel like my issues are kind of being swept under the carpet....
Feeling extremely shitty today. My nerves are on high for no logical reason and my hands are shaking. Blegh :( I need retail therapy and a massage and a real hug.
So I was talking to Brit-nasty about how I think that I am borderline ADD and she mentioned that she thought that I was also slightly depressed. I hate college. It’s stressful and dumb and makes me want to shave my head
today was a giant waste of time… I should have just stayed in bed. Now I have homework to attend to and I’d rather just nap and have a cuddle.
It’s Labor Day and all I want is a gat damned hot dog! I don’t even really like hot dogs.
I got my third tattoo yesterday… it hurts a significant amount right now. Kind of like how I imagine getting beaten up would feel like. Or, maybe a really bad sunburn. Regardless I can’t sleep on my left side for a bit because it hurts.
My lover’s ex-fiance made contact with him the other day to ask if he had ever cheated on her. You may think, Jessica why do you seem annoyed? Well, she wanted to know if he had because she has HPV. AND the dumb bitch told him not to tell me. Knowing that there could be a chance that she gave it to him and I could possibly have it to. Like really bitch what the fucking fuck?! How can you be...
These bitches are shouting right outside of my window. Like damn! that shit is really not necessary. Have some fucking common courtesy.
I’ve been with Jordan for so long that I can’t tell if I’m being flirted with right now…
It’s alright I don’t need friends anyway.